New-New beginnings

I've been in a new job for the past few weeks now and I'm enjoying it. I got to play with stuff I haven't touched in ages, and although not my forte, it's fun. The first couple of weeks are quite curious for me, as I felt my new colleagues are sizing me up (maybe that's the paranoia talking, hello!). 

I usually don't want to pipe up too much, in case nonsense comes out of my mouth, as it tends to happen when I am nervous. However, the odd thing that has happened is that I started feeling a heck of a lot more confident as time went by, something which took a long,long,long time in my previous job. There's a refreshing lack of ego from everyone so far and my opinion is actively sought after, which is great. Even though it's a very traditional sort of organisation, in terms of development processes, they are very open-minded and will try new things if the justification is there.

Of course, the shine may eventually wear off and I might sing a different tune, but for the time being, all is good.

4 years later

Sigh..feels like 4 years was yesterday. When the spectre of middle age wasn't waving to me from a distance. When I thought I would actually be working for a job that made me genuinely excited to be there.
What a bunch of sh*t.
I tell you what, interview rejection is a bitch. Not in general, but in particular, for the job you really really wanted. I've tried The Search Overlords twice so far. I've failed, miserably in both attempts. The second one was an online test, <bitterness on>the ones which really tell your examiner if you know your arse from your elbow and whether you are a good software designer <bitterness off>. It doesn't help I go to pieces each time I face a coding exercise. I usually need a little more time, nay, a lot more time, than they allow, but obviously that's never going to happen.

By the end of, I wanted to lay my head on the floor, hold my laptop over my head and let it fall on my face. Pointy side first.

"We will not be proceeding with your application". Yep, I knew that about halfway through the exercise.

I don't think I'm a bad coder, it kills me though that apparently I'm nowhere near the level of brilliance they are after, it makes me feel inadequate, and I start second-guessing my everyday work. I haven't slept properly since the fail-fest, I go to sleep with code in my head, and I wake up with a splitting headache, and the promise of a punishing day..

Maybe next year...

New job!

Hm, I haven't obviously gotten the hang of blogging, kind of don't see the point (horror!)
of it sometimes but I guess that's the beauty of the technology..you don't have to if you don't want to!

I digress. After 4 years at my current job, I am moving on! I'm really excited about it as the guys there are real early technology adaptors and seem to know their stuff ;-)