The more I read @joshbloch 's books the more I want to sit in a corner rocking back and forth, mumbling "my code sucks" ad infinitum..
I didn't expect anyone in particular to answer or comment, I was merely railing against my own inadequacies. Yet an hour later I received this
@idiotmonkeycodr Sorry. That wasn't my plan. FWIW, I learned most of those lessons the hard way.
Holy shit..I peed myself because Josh Bloch deemed my bullshit worthy enough of a response (ok a little bit of hero worship in play here). However, I almost instantly realised, I had actually inadvertently offended him. Here's someone who put a lot of fucking effort in producing books that are concise and well-read and some shit comes along and complains (albeit obliquely) that they point out the major suck-age in his code.
This all comes down to the fact that I feel very defensive about what I code, because I know my initial drafts are going to be bullshit, so to read how things should be done, makes me feel embarrassed to call myself a developer (coupled with my bizarre inability to absorb and retain information, I've read Effective Java probably 5 times now, from cover to cover, and I still cannot recall most of the nuggets of wisdom contained therein).
I guess Google telling me (politely) to fuck off has seriously dented my confidence..
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